drawing the shades.

haven't posted in a while. the end of the year is coming up and what a year it's been... not really. not much has happened for me, aside from my car blowing up and getting a new one, getting promoted to ass. man. at work, turning 29, playing with kayo dot and still not having a girlfriend.
i have decided that i will make a new year's resolution this year (something i've never done). i've got a few things on there; diet changes, exercise, mental changes but i'm thinking that i should add some more. maybe be completely honest with everyone, in the best possible way. i don't know.
i've decided that i have to do something about getting a girlfriend. what that is, i don't know. the women that are my age are already in a relationship (or married) and if they're not they're not my type, but then again i'm so lonely i'm not sure if i couldn't just be molded into someone. i'm a pretty private guy (i don't think any of my friends know me completely) and i like to be that way but of course we have the need as humans to share ourselves with someone else. i am an incomplete person.

daily observations

having a car is wonderful.

Daily Observations

i like lemon flavored things. i'm not big on lemons, except in my tea.

Daily Observations

when i was in high school i recall a can of soda was 50 cents. so, i could buy a can of soda and something from the vending machine for 50 cents (chips, dunking sticks, m&ms, ect) spending only one dollar. i did this plenty. it was a good deal, one dollar and i could eat some junk. for all of my school career i had free lunch. i wouldn't always use it, sometimes i would give to someone else. now, one day the price of canned drinks went up 5 cents. this threw off everything because you could only get one or the other (soda or chips) unless you came across 5 cents somewhere. i swear, in a school you will almost never find change on the ground. so now a dollar couldn't get you as far, if you bought a soda you'd have change in your pocket you couldn't do anything with until the next day (unless you bum some money from a friend) and if you bought chips or something you'd have 50 cents that could only get you more chips or whatever. what would you drink, water?
sometimes i would treat myself and buy a 20 oz. dr pepper. it cost $1. i'd normally get that when i'd use my free lunch. chocolate milk is great but not as good as dp and pizza.
i had a friend who would have something like 5-6 20 oz. bottles in his backpack, all day. i'd see him drink them through the day (you weren't allowed to drink in class) but he still always had 5-6 bottles. weird.
now 20 oz. bottles of soda cost $1.39 and they're gonna go up soon.

i am not an animal

i am currently suffering from a somewhat painful allergic reaction. i have a bunch of blisters on my left hand and some on my right hand and the bottoms of my feet. i don't know what i got into but i'm sure it has something to do with work.

i thought what if i had this kind of breakout on my face and then i read about this fella and some others afflicted like him. sobering.
i also read about how long people may have been in north america.

indiana jones can suck my dick.

people need to take it easy when it comes to watching movies. no movie ever, ever needs to be the greatest movie of all time. also, no movie is being made to replace your favorite movie, just like a movie, a lot if need be, and be done (and by done i mean buy all the shit with it's name on it you can). indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull was awesome. really fucking awesome. all those movies are great. i'll watch anyone of them right fucking now. in the end watch it or don't but don't freak-the-fuck out. this is entertainment not someone's life. harrison ford is an old man and he will do what any old man should do, whatever the fuck he wants. i'm glad he acts like a goober a couple of times in ijkcs it shows he's not too serious. favorite movies are mostly bullshit anyway. it's a way of narrowing down your interests so they can be easily explained to a stranger. i like all kinds of movies and they only point to the fact that i like to watch things.

i want a reason.

what the fuck is wrong with people? why does everyone hate each other so much? i've been running into so much misplaced anger lately. playing halo 3 online has been a lesson in torture. i hate that game sooo much. all the kids on there that i can't possible beat because i'm old and my reflexes have been dulled by drugs. when they beat me and i say good game, in the same way i did after a baseball game when i was 10, they reply, "you guys suck." a little kid tells me this almost everyday, "you guys suck."

i was almost killed the other night. while turn left, with a light, a car came flying straight at me at about 50mph, running the red light.. luckily, i slammed on the brakes and the fucker swirved around me. he stop a little after, i guess to see if he had hit me? what a fucking ass. i immediately thought, if i survived a car accident, how much i would be fucked. i have no money for that shit. today, i watched sicko. i cried about the way the hospitals in los angeles treat the old and poor by dropping them off on skid row. what the fuck is wrong with people? what is the percentage of christians in america, and this is the way people would prefer to treat the sick and dying? nobody seems to give much of a fuck. nobody. they'd much rather keep up appearances of being free and loving their fake as shit lives with the firm belief that there lazy holier-that-thou asses are going to heaven. stop being concerned with what happens after and start taking part now. the cloud guy or whatever, hates you.

i have heard three times in the past week that libertarians are crazy. i don't get that. how so? i'm more in line with a traditional view point but i also believe in universal aka free health care. yes, i'll pay more taxes to live a healthier, (hopefully) longer more productive life. i'll pay more taxes to make sure that everyone else is taken care of too. a doctor's first duty is to do no harm. i don't want people to die in pain. i don't want people to die in fear. i certainly don't want them to live that way either. why is that crazy? also, find out what that political ideal is before you get too flamboyant with your language.